19/03/2020
A real Candle, a Candle with heart, a Candle with God on my computer screen. A Cross and a Virgin in front of me, all together. Tonight I don’t want to leave you alone, tonight I don’t want to fall asleep. Tonight I want to be with Him; with Him, who never fails and who is always there when we ask Him. Today I feel like an apostle, to whom He has said “stay with me, pray with me,” today I want to be one of them, today I don’t want to sleep, today I just want to be with Him, for once He asks us, for one night He claims our company… Only You know how much I would like to be in front of You, on that ground of ours, in our room with our mother hugging, among those clouds that only envelop, in that room that is made for Her and in which many of us are right now. Today my heart is there with more strength than any day of this quarantine, with more strength than in all my life. Today I only have a longing to be with you, Jesus. What I would give to be in front of a Tabernacle, in front of You, trying to console you on this hard night. You make us feel pity for You, and in the Way of the Cross, you show us that you are whole, in the Way of the Cross you tell us not to cry for You, to worry about ourselves and our children. And, how silly, Jesus!… if it is still You who consoles us. Tonight I let myself go for you.
Although I don’t deny it, what I would give to see Josepe, for one of his hugs and a good handshake of those that say I love you, those that recharge the batteries. But to him and to everyone. Ugh!, how I long to go back home, to see the family again, to sing all together, live and direct. Thank you for this beautiful family Jesus, I will never get tired of saying it, thank you for Hakuna.
Jesus, I don’t feel alone, eh, don’t worry, don’t get confused. Although I get emotional I feel very full, and I feel very loved, and I am very happy and I feel messy and I am messy to the max… how I like it! Don’t worry about me, but take good care of all those who tonight are giving themselves to the extreme, in our way and humanly, but giving themselves like You. And, by the way, I ask you for those who suffer, for all of them, that they find you in their suffering. Now that I have become a beggar, and that it is 2 in the morning, I ask you for my Revolcadero, that we may be a little piece of heaven.
It is incredible how you show yourself these days, how you take care of all of us at home, how we feel you, how you are still here every day… Jesus, every day! I just can’t believe it.
My Jesus, smile, today you are not alone, today we don’t sleep, today there are thousands of lights everywhere in Spain, thousands of houses, thousands of rooms. Jesus, your apostles of the 21st century are with you, willing to love you and with open hearts. May our willingness be true, may we know how to love you as you deserve. Sometimes we are very foolish and do not value you. Change that in me, change it in all of us. That every day we can go to a church, we realize that you are there and that this is a gift. Now everything is so clear, I have it so clear… What is the first thing I am going to do? Well, go to see you, go to see you with a resurrected face. We are nothing. I am nothing, Jesus, I am nothing without You.
How I long to walk your streets, how I long to go to the Holy Land, how I long to go see your house, how I long to be at the Jordan. Oh, my Father, how much you must love us! How much you must love us!
