25/11/2022
FIREWORKS
I arrived at the God Stop with no expectations but sure that spending two days close to the Lord would do me a lot of good. I had in mind to pray for certain intentions, prepare some texts for an HKN group I am helping with, reflect on the past year lived and project myself into the one to come. However, the reality was different. Every time I was on my knees before You, I was unable to articulate a word. That White Bread attracted my soul like a magnet. I could only look at You, be calm before You without thinking about anything, without organizing anything, without any worry. Simply BE. It reminded me of that state spouses find themselves in after some years of marriage: silent spouses who do not need words to feel understood. Slow, unhurried love that enjoys the small things. That is how I have felt these two days. I did not desire anything extraordinary, I did not need fireworks, in fact, I did not want them. I preferred to forget about sensitivity, about emotion, and give way to ****the REAL. Your true presence in that BREAD. Without asking me anything, without feeling anything special. Just BE. And I thank You for it, Lord; because in the midst of that CALM is where You Transfigure my heart without me realizing it. I do not set rules or conditions for You, I recognize You as Creator and I want the work You do with me to be EXCLUSIVELY YOURS. I want my life to change from within, that my encounter with You is reflected every day, in my home, loving my own as You loved Mary and Joseph, carrying the Cross with the same meekness with which You carried it.
Some time ago I heard on Radio María: “Carry the Cross embraced and you will hardly notice it, because the Cross dragged is the one that weighs the most.” What a mystery! How real!
Source of LIFE, let me be a heart that beats among men. Source of STRENGTH, allow me to be a pillar and a staff on which others can lean. Source of LIGHT, I want to open a path among those who do not believe. Source of SALT, help me to be joy in every place.
BLESSED be GOD CREATOR AND REDEEMER of the world. And BLESSED be your MOTHER, brave woman, Your mirror. LIVING hearts I DESIRE to resemble.
