30/09/2018
The return has not been easy, between the hard farewell and this whole superficial world that surrounds us it has been a strange blow. How right D.Josepe was, how little superficial superficiality is. I have realized that by untying myself from all these nonsense this month I have been free, totally free. And it has been in that freedom where I only have words of gratitude, first of all towards Him, and to all of you.
Thank you Lord for these days in Calcutta, Pushkar. I think I can say with certainty that it has been the best month of my life. But, they ask me, how can it be if you have slept nothing, lost weight, been hot, argued with Indians until you couldn’t anymore. The solution is simple: YOU.
This month Lord you have transformed me, this spending about 2 hours in front of You has changed my life. It wasn’t a brutal feeling either, but now I see everything you have done in me. You have changed me, I have served until it hurt without realizing it, I have loved you much more and I have known you more, I have loved and served others and I have let myself be loved a lot. How much you do in us if we let ourselves be done. Just by putting myself in front and begging you, do in me what you want, when, how and where you want.
You have used me, Lord, and how right Luis was; how everything changes from the shot glass to Guillem’s balloon glass.
I try to think that this month I have gotten a little closer to your cross and your passion, with the service and the little suffering endured. And how undeserved your suffering is. All that for me? What have I done? Sin every week? Return and return and return? Turn my back on you? I don’t understand it, I DON’T KNOW WHAT YOU SAW IN ME. But I give you infinite thanks, because thanks to that I realize how much you love me, and damn, it’s crazy. When do you do all that for me? I ask you Lord to learn to suffer and serve, at least a small part of what you did. Help me to put my heart on the ground so that others step softly.
Thank you for everything you have given me, I realize everything you have invested in me. Thank you very much for having been able to know you and be close to You always. Why me? I am a poor, narrow-minded, selfish and miserable person. How much you have put in me. This Lord gives me confidence, that you have invested so much, I don’t see it, but damn, if you have done it, who am I to deny your will and put a brake on your desires. I ask you Jesus to be up to the task, and above all to accompany thousands of souls all my life by your side. How eager I am Lord.
Also thank you for that holy hour in the middle of the party, in which many of us half fell asleep, but what madness. For me it has been the best moment of the month. To see 200 guys who are hyped with a beer in hand, stop, be silent and kneel before you shouting I LOVE YOU, I WANT TO LOVE YOU. That Lord has changed me, to see how others look at you, to see how others love you, to see how you love them.
And how am I going to forget the family that has been created, what an amazing group of people you have put by my side. I have learned a lot from people around me, from looks, smiles, and many conversations. What joy was in the air!! The heaviest thing is every moment you crossed paths with someone, just SMILES. You have conquered us this month, whether we wanted it or not! And for many of us you have changed the way we see everything. Thanks to ALL and each of the 200, I have only been able to learn, learn and learn from all of you.
I will never forget the songs to the Mother of Hakuna, nor any of the 200 smiles that encouraged me at all times.
I ask you to amaze me and make me fall in love more and more every day.
REVOLUTION.
